obligatory new years post
at the end of 2008 i wrote:
as for 2009...a good job, love, succeeding at applying to grad school, and some traveling/adventuring (tokyo or hawaii?) would be nice. ok back to movie watching. alright, maybe i'll write one resolution (that i don't think i've ever had before): i need to watch more good movies.
let's see:
a good job: i guess work has been sporadic BUT i have managed to survive and for the past two months i've had too much work. so that's good. oh wow, actually, i just realized that i didn't have my idea space design job until after the new year, so i guess i did succeed with that in 2009. was such a random job to get and wasn't paid at first but i've learned a ton and now i'm running the office in the us soooo i guess that is a major improvement from my unemployed broke ass state last winter. yeah, i have 100x more money in the bank then i had a year ago. good stuff.
love: uh..hmm..well don't know for sure if i found it but had some good experiences? yeah, i'll just leave it at that.
succeeding at applying to grad school: yeah, took over my effing life and i've managed to gain like 10 pounds from the stress of it all, but it happened. check.
traveling/adventuring: bend, or, grand canyon, vegas, and lots of california adventures with elisa. plus two trips back to the east coast. not too bad on my limited budget.
watching more good movies: hmm i probably saw more in 2009 than i have in other years? still have lots more to see. when i get free time or someone to watch movies with again.
other reflections on 2009: the year was filled with some ridiculous stuff - eviction notices, housewarming parties (cracked open head...), crazy work experiences, near poverty living, an awesome summer with new friends and elisa, a new west hollywood apartment, got into running again, kept falling in love with la, new pets... 2009 was quite a year of struggle for strength. it started out on a pretty insecure note and remembering how i opted to spend my time last break in the city vs. the decisions i've made this time around are drastically different. yeah, 2009 was a roller coaster ride - found myself in tears over job insecurity, financial fears, drama in our apartment, a relationship of confusion and goodbyes, and other random things in between. at least 2010 is starting out with ridiculous confidence. a few months ago i was a complete mess and at this point i feel like i could conquer the world. i've applied to grad school, i'm so happy with where we live and how it's going to look once painted, etc., i feel like i could find a better job at this point and, if not, my sources of income are still pretty steady, i've got some amazing friends, and, while love is always something on my mind, it is no longer a top priority. stepping away from things it's nice to see that i can make an amazing life independently. perhaps one of the nicest things said to me in 2009, which sent me into a confused whirlwind of thought at the time, was: "kels, my favorite thing to do in southern california is make you smile." looking back on that and other things, i'm realizing that i need to live on new terms. oh and really random thought, but i was realizing last night that i really haven't drank that much this year. and i like that. it's something that i no longer feel like i need. i mean, yes, every once in a while it's fun, but it no longer has the huge appeal it used to have. the more i think about it, the more i feel like stuff in families, more often than not, skips generations. so based on that theory my children will be raging alcoholics. fabulous. ok enough rambling.
goals for 2010:
get into shape ESPECIALLY after the wonder grad school apps/nonstop work for the past two months have done on my figure. this getting into shape thing, i THINK will involve joining a gym. because, for now, i have dollars and very ambitious intentions.
start grad school. now this one is basically out of my hands at this point. so maybe this is less of a goal and more of a hope.
travel to either europe (for my mom's 50th or to see elisa for the 4th summer in a row) or to japan to visit tamar. or both if for some reason i'm rolling in money.
explore more of west hollywood/la/california.
read more.
get rid of some of my debt.
haha and this one is ridiculous/probably would never happen/should probably go on the list of goals for the decade if i ever made one - spend a [preferably romantic] night here:
http://www.standardhotels.com/new-york-city/totally fell in love with the building today as i was walking along the high line...then i saw the website and fell in love with the interiors...and there's a german biergarten below it. it's got floor to ceiling windows with views of the water and manhattan - decked out in a retro/modern look - great floor plans - the building itself totally looks like something out of the 50's/60's, love, love, love.
so far 2010 is off to a great start. rang in the new year in new york city with some great friends. was a fun college reunionesque kind of night. then i got to explore the high line because our brunch destination just happened to be right next door. had a pleasant train ride back home and i've just been relaxing, reflecting, smiling at the possibilities of the year to come. i just have a feeling about this one. i feel like 2009 was a rough one, but a sort of preparatory boot camp of life experience. and i feel that 2010 will mark a period of things finally happening and pieces falling right into place.
Current Mood: 
optimisticCurrent Music: perfectly lonely - john mayer 
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